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In the 2010 documentary Beyond the Lighted Stage, Neil Peart says:

Words can carry different freight for different people, of course, but those who do have the sensitivity to pay the kind of attention to lyrics that I put into them, it’s wonderful to connect that way and to feel that you’re not playing down to anyone. We’ve always had the impression that people are just as smart as we are, so if we can figure this stuff out, that they can, too, you know, and we’re not being that, that terrible, damning word, “pretentious”. We’re not pretending anything. This is really what turned us on this year, you know. Lyrically, it’s always been a reflection of my times and the times I observe, but everyone is a reflection of me.


Peart writes for an audience sensitive to the coded allusions to intense, drug-based altered state experiencing, including self-control seizure and reconfiguration in the light of experiential shift from possiblism to eternalism.

“We’re not pretending anything” : lyrics are metaphorical reports of *experiencing*, not mere imagination about Greek gods, Xanadu, futuristic societies, robots, clockwork angels.

“people are just as smart as we are…they can [figure it out]” : Peart relies on audience to decipher. Rush as mystery band, requires metaphorical interpretation.

“reflection of my times and the times I observe…everyone is a reflection of me” : extreme solipsism typical of altered state, doubts about reality of external world, including other people. Mind in altered state interprets all things as leading to revelation about self, time and world

Quotation plays in part over video for song Subdivisions. Sample lyrics referring to eternalism and self-control cybernetics [see also on Subdivisions]:

In geometric order

growing up it all seemed so one-sided / opinions all provided / the future pre-decided

nowhere is the dreamer or the misfit so alone

conform or be cast out

any escape might help to smooth / the unattractive truth / but the suburbs have no charms to soothe / the restless dreams of youth

the timeless old attraction [sung ‘timeless soul detraction’]

Get caught in ticking traps

Did John Lennon learn the lyrical technique of alluding to altered state experiencing from Bob Dylan? Dylan heard the Beatles sing ‘I get high’ in the song ‘I Want to Hold Your Hand’.

I have not studied Dylan much, but the broad outlines suggest he was working on the lyrical technique of alluding to altered state experiencing in early 1964. This verse from ‘Mr. Tambourine Man’ comes to mind, with my annotations:

Take me on a trip upon your magic swirlin’ ship [passive rider on loose cognition ship]

My senses have been stripped, my hands can’t feel to grip [loose cognition; inability to control and steer]

My toes too numb to step

Wait only for my boot heels to be wanderin’ [toe in front (ego] not in control, but heel behind (hidden controller) is; wander = not in direct control of direction]

I’m ready to go anywhere, I’m ready for to fade [acceptance of secondary level of control, of givenness of motion; ego power fades]

Into my own parade, cast your dancing spell my way [illusory cross time ego power fades into time slice ‘parade’ of individual moments; local control spellbound and enthralled by nonlocal control]

I promise to go under it [pledge to higher controller, submission]

Dylan’s drug timeline is unclear, but some place his first LSD trip in early 1964, with cannabis use before that. His lyrics take on a more symbolic, introspective quality beginning with the songs written in early 1964, including ‘Mr. Tambourine Man’ [although not recorded and released until 1965].

It’s accepted that Dylan turned the Beatles on to cannabis in late 1964. Lennon is usually said to have gone through a ‘Dylan’ phase during the recording of the Help! album in early 1965. Before the Beatles took the reins in late 1965, Dylan was the accepted leader of rock as art form. The classic psychedelic band The Byrds began their success in early 1965 by covering ‘Mr. Tambourine Man’, including only the verse I quoted above, the most obviously psychedelic of the verses.

Michael writes:

The Rock radio DJ again played the audio clip of John Lennon vehemently denying that the song title and lyric line “Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds” stands for LSD. My retort: Was this before, or after the “Beatles are more popular than Jesus” fiasco? The Beatles had PR problems even before the pot and acid revolution.

Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds was released in June 1967 on Sgt. Pepper’s. Lennon said the Beatles were more popular than Jesus in March 1966, originally appearing in a British publication. The fiasco erupted when the statement was republished in the USA in August 1966. There were extensive protests throughout the US, especially the south. Radio stations stopped playing their records. Records were burned publicly. The KKK picketed their concerts. Death threats were made. A number of other countries banned the Beatles’ music. Lennon’s killer in 1980 was still angry about the remark.

By June 1967 and Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds, the covert war was well underway. The Byrds had already seen their commercial success harmed by the accusation that their songs ‘Eight Miles High’ and ‘Fifth Dimension’ were drug songs, released in March and June of 1966. Fifth Dimension album released in July 1966, featuring cover with band members riding magic carpet and first appearance of their psychedelic band name logo.

March – June 1966 also saw the Beatles land in controversy with the ‘Butcher Cover‘ to the US album Yesterday and Today, depicting dead baby dolls. It was a rough year for the Beatles – early in the year they were forcefully run out of the Philippines for perceived insults against the Queen of that country. They were well trained at minimizing the effects of bad publicity by the release of Sgt. Pepper’s and Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds.

Beatles timeline (assembled via):

28 August 1964 – Dylan fully turns on the Beatles and manager Brian Epstein to cannabis. They had encountered it as early as 1960, but stuck to amphetamines. Dylan had heard the lyric “I can’t hide” in the Beatles song ‘I Want to Hold Your Hand’ as ‘I get high’ and assumed that the Beatles were already regular users.

8 October 1964 – Beatles record song ‘She’s A Woman’. Lennon later says that the lyrics ‘turn me on when I get lonely’ refers to cannabis. This is likely the first dru allusion in a Beatles song, here simply referring to the drug. The technique would later blossom into competent allusions to control dynamics as revealed in the intense altered state.

23 / 27 November 1964 – ‘I Feel Fine / She’s A Woman’ single released.

February – June 1965 – Beatles record album and film Help!. The filming of the movie (and therefore also the recording of album, recorded concurrently) is usually described as happening amid a cloud of cannabis smoke.

Between March and July 1965 – Lennons, Harrison and Boyd dosed with LSD.

13 April 1965 – song ‘Help!’ recorded, reflecting altered state loss of youthful conception of independent ego power and need for rescue by higher controller. Lyrical encoding suggests that the date of LSD dosing above must be before the recording of the song, unless Lennon had strong control loss experiences on cannabis, such as through ingesting.

6 August 1965 – Help! album released.

24 August 1965 – Purported ‘second trip’ of Lennon and Harrison and Starr’s first, at party in Los Angeles. Joined by Roger McGuinn and David Crosby of The Byrds. Actor Peter Fonda tells Lennon ‘I know what it’s like to be dead’, later used in the song ‘She Said She Said’ from Revolver.

October – November 1965 – Beatles record Rubber Soul album and ‘Day Tripper / We Can Work It Out’ single

3 December 1965 – Rubber Soul album and ‘Day Tripper / We Can Work It Out’ single released

March 1966 – ‘Butcher’ photo taken for US compilation album, cover produced but hastily covered over at most packaging plants in time for June 1966 release. ‘Bigger than Jesus’ interview conducted and published in UK

1 April 1966 – Lennon purchases copy of Leary, Alpert, and Metzner’s The Psychedelic Experience: A Manual Based on the Tibetan Book of the Dead. Influences song ‘Tomorrow Never Knows’ from Revolver album, the recording of which song began on 6 April 1966.

April – June 1966 – Recording of Revolver album and ‘Paperback Writer / Rain’ single

30 May / 10 June 1966 – ‘Paperback Writer / Rain’ single released

5 August 1966 – Revolver album released.

August 1966 – ‘Bigger than Jesus’ controversy in US; final Beatles tour.

6 October 1966 – LSD prohibition begins, first in California

November 1966 – April 1967 – Beatles record Sgt. Pepper’s album and ‘Strawberry Fields Forever / Penny Lane’ single

February 1967 – ‘Strawberry Fields Forever / Penny Lane’ single released

April – November 1967 – Beatles record songs collected on Magical Mystery Tour album

29 April 1967 – Lennon attends 14 Hour Technicolour Dream [=duration of an LSD trip] happening while tripping on LSD.

1 June 1967 – Sgt. Pepper’s album released. Song ‘A Day in the Life’ banned by BBC for drug references; other countries ban other songs for the same. Beatles initially deny, but later McCartney says ‘Sgt. Pepper was a drug album’.

17 June 1967 – McCartney is first Beatle to discuss LSD use publicly.

24 July 1967 – Beatles and Epstein add names to public add calling for legalization of cannabis.

7 August 1967 – Harrisons trip on LSD while in Haight-Ashbury.

26 August 1967 – Beatles publicly renounce use of drugs, pledge themselves to Transcendental Meditation of Maharishi Mahesh Yogi. Beatles play the game, publicly embrace meditation as phony substitute for drugs, popularized after illegalization of LSD.

September 1967 – Beatles film Magical Mystery Tour

November 1967 – Magical Mystery Tour album released

26 December 1967 – Magical Mystery Tour film released

February – April 1968 – Beatles attend Transcendental Meditation retreat in India at ashram of Maharishi Mahesh Yogi

18 October 1968 – Lennon and Ono arrested for cannabis possession

12 March 1969 – Harrisons arrested for cannabis possession

All four Beatles would defend LSD later in life.

Other drugs factor into the Beatles story, including cocaine and heroin, but they are of relatively less interest than cannabis and especially LSD. Due to Prohibition and the pre-Prohibition drug backlash, we can never take them exactly at their word about their drug use. They were forced to conceal and distort in their statements to the ‘straight’ media.

I sense that the period 1965-1967 is the most profound period of the Beatles career, the most influenced by cannabis and LSD.

Unity consciousness is not the end goal of enlightenment. You must test your mental model of control in the intense altered state:

From “Watcher of the Skies” by Genesis (1972)

“From life alone

To life as one [unity consciousness, oneness]

Think not now your journey’s done [a warning to ‘oneness’ advocates: you’re not finished!]

For though your ship be sturdy

No mercy has the sea

Will you survive on the ocean of being?” [A challenge to test control agency in the loosened state of cognition. You think your ship is sturdy? Set sail and steer your ship. See how your mental model of control fares on the sea. The ship is the control system, you are the pilot, the sea is the loosened state of cognition]

Just tuned into this:

Spent my days with a woman unkind, [woman unkind = egoic delusion]
Smoked my stuff and drank all my wine. [ingestion of entheogen]
Made up my mind to make a new start, [transformation of mental worldmodel]
Going To California with an aching in my heart. [wounded local source of thoughts]
Someone told me there’s a girl out there [rumors of new relationship]
with love in her eyes and flowers in her hair. [Love = benevolent relationship between parts of self; eyes/*I*s = splitting of self; flowers in hair = entheogens in head; also, flower = secret of growth, revealing of control systems in head]
Took my chances on a big jet plane, [flying sensation, piloting, steering; risky chance]
never let them tell you that we’re all the same.
The sea was red and the sky was grey; [Inversion of normal colors]
I wondered how tomorrow could ever follow today. [stopped time, eternalism]
The mountains and the canyons started to tremble and shake [world model changes, both high and low; perceptual distortion]
as the children of the sun began to awake. [new child = new fresh control system after initiation; parent-child relationship with ultimate controller = sun]

Seems that the wrath of the Gods [wrath against ego delusion; higher controller kills ego delusion]
Got a punch on the nose and it started to flow; [watery perceptual distortion]
I think I might be sinking. [loss of ego control power as self sinks into watery flowing surroundings]
Throw me a line if I reach it in time [prayer for rescue, to be pulled out]
I’ll meet you up there where the path [union with higher controller; on the single, eternal path]
Runs straight and high. [single eternal path of determinism]

To find a queen without a king, [queen/king = controllers, union of controllers. queen without king is local receptive passive ego without active filling controller]
They say she plays guitar and cries and sings… la la la la
Ride a white mare in the footsteps of dawn [horse and rider, follow the path of the sun/ higher controller]
Tryin’ to find a woman who’s never, never, never been born. [never been born = never mistook local pseudo autonomy for literal autonomy; cf. Beatles, “She Said She Said” – and you’re making me feel like I’ve never been born]
Standing on a hill in my mountain of dreams,
Telling myself it’s not as hard, hard, hard as it seems.

Singer leaves ego delusion, travels in search of new control system.

Run for Your Life

One of the more shocking songs in the Beatles catalogue.

Well I’d rather see you dead, little girl
Than to be with another man
You better keep your head, little girl
Or I won’t know where I am

You better run for your life if you can, little girl
Hide your head in the sand little girl
Catch you with another man
That’s the end ah little girl

Well I know that I’m a wicked guy
And I was born with a jealous mind
And I can’t spend my whole life
Trying just to make you toe the line

You better run for your life if you can…

Let this be a sermon
I mean everything I’ve said
Baby, I’m determined
And I’d rather see you dead

You better run for your life if you can…

I’d rather see you dead…

You better run for your life if you can…

The lyrics are deliberately shocking and disturbing in order to point to the altered state themes, similar to the controversial album cover that featured pieces of meat and plastic limbs from baby dolls of the same time period (The song was recorded in Dec of 1965 and the picture taken in early 1966). Lennon sings with a paranoid, manic quality, as someone in the grips of egodeath madness, willing to destroy his own ego (the little girl). His little girl has betrayed him, gone off to another man. This means that his local control system has failed him, betrayed him, left him for another control source (‘the other man’). Lennon is not in control of his ego, but another controller is. Lennon is driven out of his mind and will kill his own ego in order to demonstrate his control. He hints at the religious nature of the song in the line “Let this be a sermon” and at fatedness in the line “Baby, I’m determined.”

In later interviews, Lennon distanced himself from the song.

Written during an all night acid trip by Mike Heron in 1967. Aside from the various references to death and timeless scattered among the lyrics, the ending of the song reflects the perceptual white light feedback that often accompanies the climax of an acid trip and the sensation of allowing a hidden controller to guide you:

May the long time sun shine upon you
All love surround you
And the pure light within you
Guide you all the way on.

I bring up these lyrics because they are often misattributed as a traditional blessing. You can find people claiming that they are an Irish blessing, a Sikh blessing, a Sufi blessing, and a Kundalini mantra and that Heron adopted them. The lyrics have become especially widespread in a variety of yogic practices, though again without proper attribution.

It is important to reassert the original context of these lyrics. They reflect drug-based experiencing. When meditation-only advocates and other drug-disparaging, ‘spiritual’ new agers use the lyrics, they are co-opting lyrics that actually reflect drug-based spirituality, which is the only authentic form of spirituality because only with drugs does the spirit actually come in any reliable sense. It’s not clear how the misattribution has spread so much. It seems that at some point in the late 60s or early 70s, practitioners of Kundalini yoga began singing the lyrics to conclude their daily practice. Likely, Heron’s name simply fell out as practitioners spread the chant. How the chant became attributed to so many different traditions is beyond me.

This is only a minor part of the conflict against entheogen-diminishing, meditation advocates, but it nonetheless reflects larger patterns in that conflict. Meditation-only advocates co-opt authentic drug-based spirituality and act as if their co-option reflects traditional practice.

Dreamt I was dead sleeping in your bed
Floated up from the ground and looked down
Then finally I could see completely
Heard the angels’ song
I know what you are
I could never tell
They sang what you are
This far away, you’re a miniature to me
Are you sorry you almost disappeared
Now I know what you are
I could never tell
They sang what you are
Now the notes are fading
and everything is turned around
And I can’t help but think it
Its a long way down
And everything is changing
and everything is turned around
And I can’t help but thinking
its a long way down
Now I know what you are
I could never tell
They sang what you are


The song is about an altered state experience in which the speaker’s awareness splits away from his sense of self or ego, rises up, and comes to see how small his ego really is. The song refers to an “I” and a “You” as if to two different people, but it’s really about self knowledge. In the altered state one’s awareness seems to split from one’s sense of self or ego. One recognizes that one’s ego, which one had previously identified with completely, is but a limited and largely illusory construct. That’s why the speaker can address that construct as “You”. “Miniature” and “almost disappeared” refer to the limited and largely illusory nature of the ego.

“Everything is turned around” refers to the complete change of viewpoint brought about by the altered state and the revolutionary self-knowledge gained in it. Where once the speaker had identified himself completely with his ego, he now has a wider understanding of himself, one that includes the experiences typical of the altered state.

“It’s a long way down” refers to the period after the knowledge about the limited and illusory nature of the ego has been gained. The altered state experience will come to an end, and the speaker will return to his normal state of perception and egoic functioning.

This is a common experience in the altered state. Look up references to these sensations in the altered state: dreaming that one is dead, flying up to a height or being lifted up, looking down, hearing the angels, self-discovery and self-knowledge, ego death, meta-perception, perceiving the working of one’s own mind, the illusory ego, pure awareness.


Many other Guster songs from the albums Parachute (1995), Goldfly (1997), Lost and Gone Forever (1999), and Keep it Together (2003) refer to altered state experiencing. I have not investigated their other albums. It is noteworthy because the band would not normally be characterized as Psychedelic, Classic, Acid, Prog, or Metal. We expect to find masterful allusions to the altered state in those genres.

The name of the band, Dream Theater, suggests altered state visionary experiencing and ideas of acting a role on a stage. They are known fans of the acid mystic rock album Caress of Steel by Rush.

It’s fairly easy to spot the allusions to altered state phenomena, including perceptual distortion and loss of control.

6) Six degrees of inner turbulence [six degress = six altered state sessions? inner turbulence = disturbance of egoic control system in altered state]
I. Overture


II. About to crash [lead up to egodeath control system crash]

She can’t stop pacing [nervous movement in altered state. she = egoic control system, gendered as feminine because ultimately receives control thoughts from ‘male’ source]
She never felt so alive [hightened senses]
Her thoughts are racing [typical of altered state]
Set on overdrive [overdrive is a nice double entendre: drive = operate control system; over = higher controller outside of local control system]

It takes a village
This she knows is true
They’re expecting her
And she’s got work to do

He helplessly stands by [no power in altered state; standing outside self]
It’s meaningless to try [no control power]
As he rubs his red-rimmed eyes [red eyes from taking drugs, lack of sleep while tripping all night]
He says I’ve never seen her get this bad [he = mind observing female psyche self destructing]

Even though she seems so high [altered state tripping]
He knows that she can’t fly [no power in ego]
And when she falls out of the sky [egodeath, like myths of Icarus and Phaeton, youths who tried to fly]
He’ll be standing by [standing outside self]

She was raised in a small midwestern town
By a charming and eccentric loving father
She was praised as the perfect teenage girl [youth]
And everyone thought highly of her [raised to be part of society of egos]

And she tried everyday [ego strives]
With endless drive [control power]
To make the grade [ego’s own desire for power and success]
Then one day [fated day]
She woke up to find [woke up in altered state]
The perfect girl
Had lost her mind [disappearance of ego]

Once barely taking a break
Now she sleeps the days away [in altered state]

She helplessly stands by [helpless, no power; stands outside mind]
It’s meaningless to try [can’t control]
All she wants to do is cry [altered state depression at loss of ego power]
No one ever knew she was so sad

Cause even though she gets so high
And thinks that she can fly
She will fall out of the sky
But in the face of misery
She found hopefulness [pass through egodeath to trust in higher controller]
Feeling better
She had weathered
This depression

Much to her advantage
She resumed her frantic pace [after enlightenment return to old activities, but now with a secure new control system]
Boundless power [higher controller has boundless power]
Midnight hour
She enjoyed the race. [can now enjoy trips free from danger of egodeath]

III. War inside my head [struggle for control]

Napalm showers
Showed the cowards
We weren’t there to mess around [intense tripping]

Though heat exhaustion
And mind distortion [altered state]
A military victory mounted on innocent ground

Hearing voices from miles away [disassociation from perceptions]
Saying things never said [communicating coded meanings]
Seeing shadows in the light of the day [visual distortion]
Waging a war inside my head [inner conflict]

Years and years of [time distortion]
Bloodshed and warfare
Our mission was only to get in and kill [egodeath]

A free vacation [tripping]
Of palmtrees and shrapnel
Trading innocence for permanent psychotic hell [switch from no experience in altered state to madness in altered state; permanent = frozen time]

Hearing voices from miles away
Saying things never said
Seeing shadows in the light of the day
Waging a war inside my head

Feeling strangers staring my way [altered state paranoia, self feels unfamiliar, sense of outside higher controller inspecting self]
Reading minds never read [exploration of mind]
Tasting danger with each word I say [mixing of senses, taste of entheogen, perhaps sung as ‘testing danger’ – test self control failure]
Waging the war inside my head.

IV. The test that stumped them all [put ego control to the test, search for power, discover limits of ego power]

Standing in the darkness [egodeath]
Waiting for the light [frozen time waiting for saving light of higher control; altered state perceptual feedback]
The smell of pure adrenaline [mind races in altered state, release of chemicals in mind]
Burning in the night [tripping all night]

Random blinding flashes [perceptual distortion]
Aiming at the stage [sense of watching a play, standing outside mind watching ego acting out a role]
Intro tape begins to roll [time divided into film cells]
Igniting sonic rage [rage = altered state madness; perceptual distortion]

Still they keep me between these hollow walls [ego trapped in time slice]
Hoping to find in me
The answers to the test that stumped them all [searching ego for control power]

“The boy is just simply crazy [altered state madness; boy = egoic system. Also, similar to priests in 2112, denouncing drug users as crazy]
Suffering from delusions [delusions of ego power]
We honestly think the maybe
He might need an institution [incarceration of ego / incarceration of drug users]

He lives in a world of fiction [ego not truth and reality / attack by straight society on drug users as lame dreamers]
And really could use some help [ego needs assistance, can’t rely on self]
We have just the place to fix him [fix, fasten to block universe]
To save him from himself” [save mind from self destructive control system, reconfigure control system]

Curled up in the darkness
Searching of the light
The smell of sweat and shit
Steaming through the night

Random urine testing [demonization of drug users]
Pills red, pink and blue [drugs provided by corporate drug companies]
Counselling and therapy
Providing not a clue [ineffectiveness of psychology]

Still they keep me between these hollow walls
Hoping to find in me
The answers to the test that stumped them all

“We can’t seem to find the answers
He seemed such a clear cut case
We cannot just let him leave here
And put all this work to waste [ego dominant society demonizes mystic drug users as insane and cannot comprehend them]

Why don’t we try shock treatment
It really might do some help
We have just the tools to fix him
To save him from himself”.

V. Goodnight kiss [goodbye to childish ego control logic]

Goodnight kiss in your nightgown
Lavender in your bed [plant = stand in for entheogens? Lavender is a sedative, often used by insomniacs]
So innocent as you lie down
Sweet dreams that run through your head [altered state dreaming]

Are you lonely without Mommy’s love? [ego alone and wants love from compassionate higher controller (=mother)]
I want you to know I’d die for that moment
You’re just a poor girl [girl = ego control system]
Afraid of this cruel world [ego afraid of cruel truth of determinism]
Taken away from it all [mind transported out of self]

It’s been 5 years to the day and
My tainted blood’s still the same [can’t go back to pre initiation stage]
I can’t help acting this way and [can’t help = no control]
Those bastard doctors are gonna pay

I’m so lonely without baby’s love
I want you to know I’d die for one more moment
I’m just a poor girl
Afraid of this cruel world
Taken away from it all.

VI. Solitary shell [radical solipsism]

He seemed no different from the rest
Just a healthy normal boy [boy = egoic control system]
His mama always did her best
And he was daddy’s pride and joy

He learned to walk and talk on time [learn to steer self, use ego]
But never cared much to be held
And steadily he would decline
Into his solitary shell [ego tries to withdraw into autonomy]

As a boy he was considered somewhat odd [oddity, madness]
Kept to himself most of the time [introspection, ego lost in own world]
He would daydream in and out of his own world
But in every other way he was fine

He’s a Monday morning lunatic [tripping every week]
Disturbed from time to time [ego shaken during temporary altered state sessions]
Lost within himself
In his solitary shell

A temporary catatonic
Madman on occasion
When will he break out
Of his solitary shell

He struggled to get through his day [ego control system not efficient, self frustrating]
He was helplessly behind
He poured himself onto the page
Writing for hours at a time

As a man he was a danger to himself [ego self destructive]
Fearful and sad most of the time
He was drifting in and out of sanity
But in every other way he was fine

He’s a Monday morning lunatic
Disturbed from time to time
Lost within himself
In his solitary shell

A momentary maniac
With casual delusions
When will he be let out
Of his solitary shell.

VII. About to crash (reprise)

I’m alive again [control power restored after egodeath]
The darkness far behind me
I’m invincible [no longer subject to egodeath]
Despair will never find me

I feel strong
I’ve got a new sense of elation
Boundless energy
Euphoria fixation

Still it’s hard to just get by
It seems so meaningless to try
When all I want to do is cry
Who would ever know I felt so sad [still act as before after enlightenment, but now with a different understanding]

Even though I get so high
I know that I will never fly
And when I fall out of the sky
Who’ll be standing by

Will you be standing by.

VIII. Losing time / Grand finale

She dresses in black everyday [as if for a funeral, of ego]
She keeps her hair simple and plain
She never wears makeup [simple, doesn’t add unnecessary ego assumption]
But no one would care if she did anyway

She doesn’t recall yesterday
Faces seem twisted and strange
But she always wakes up
Only to find she’d been miles away

Absence of awareness
Losing time
A lapse of perception
Losing time

Wanting to escape
She had created a way to survive
She learned to detach from herself [avoid ego death]
A behavior that kept her alive

Hope in the face of our human distress [hope = irrational trust in higher controller in the face of egodeath]
Helps us to understand the turbulence deep inside
That takes hold of our live
Shame and disgrace over mental unrest
Keeps us from saving those we love [modern society based on assumption of unproblematic ego control]
The grace within our hearts
And the sorrow in our souls
Deception of fame
Vengeance of war
Lives torn apart [mental disintegration]
Losing oneself [loss of ego]
Spiraling down [whirling sensation]
Feeling the walls closing in
A journey to find
The answers inside
Our illusive mind.

Annoyance with egoic state and with most peoples continued use of problematic egoic state.

In a world
where people have problems [ego system problematic]
In this world
where decisions are a way of life [ego system based on sense of decision making]
Other people’s problems they overwhelm my mind [ego experienced as someone else, burdening mind]
They say compassion is a virtue, but I don’t have the time [mind itself has no time (frozen block universe) to save itself – what to do with this conundrum?]

So many people…have their problems
I’m not interested…in their problems
I guess I’ve…experienced some problems
But now I’ve…made some decisions
Takes a lot of time to push away the nonsense
Take my compassion…Push it as far as it goes
My interest level’s dropping, my interest level is dropping
I’ve heard all I want to, I don’t want to hear any more

What are you, in love with your problems? [in love with ego system, attached to it.]
I think you take it…a little too far [place too much trust in ego, too attached to ego]
It’s…not so cool to have so many problems
But don’t expect me to explain your indecisions [indecision resulting from self-frustrating reliance on ego power]
Go…talk to your analyst, isn’t that what they’re paid for
You walk, you talk…You still function like you used to
It’s not a question…Of your personality or style
Be a little more selfish, it might do you some good

In a world where people have problems
In this world where decisions are a way of life
Other people’s problems, they overwhelm my mind
They say compassion is a virtue, but I don’t have the time
(Here we go again)


Metaphorical Psychedelic Eternalism
June 2020


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